Recently, I’ve had all the colors of Gauguin’s paintings in my head. The pinks, purples, and yellows of Spring have finally popped up, and the sun is warmer on the skin. Paintings inspire me quite a bit when I’m working on a project: Andrew Wyeth for the TITANIA Dream Scene, Edward Hopper for The Silent Nick and Nora… I don’t re-create their paintings, but try to capture a sense of them – a visual echo of inspiration. Some critics say that Gauguin’s colors were illogical; some people say that about dreams too. But you can’t fit your art or your dreams into some else’s perspective. Photographer Brooke Shaden said it beautifully, “There is no happiness in living up to someone else’s dream.”
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“I shut my eyes in order to see.” – Paul Gauguin
Sometimes when the Universe gives you such a resounding answer, you have no choice but to sit at the edge of the world and listen. Even if that answer is contrary to all that you thought was right, and shifts how you look at the world.
What I do know is that creativity keeps my heart in balance. It is not born of ego, or deadlines, or pressure to answer impossible questions. But comes from exploration, and love, and the yearning to tell a story. Sometimes you just want to share the intricate play of words with someone, or the wonder of the stars. It is the small moments that define art for me, the quietness. From there the violent rush of “now or else” is like all the blood in your veins suddenly running backwards. And it’s up to you to find yourself in the answer you’ve been given. There can be no time limit for that though. Only present.
(Mata Mua – Paul Gauguin)
You are not the sum of someone’s ideas about you, you are the whole of your own heart. Go sit on the edge of the world and listen deeply. What is it you think you don’t have the courage to do? What don’t you understand? That’s where you begin…
(before and after my photoshop work)